i mean i write this blog for me, not for anyone else so it doesnt really matter
that's why i dont tell basically anybody about it
hah. dang. i just want to disappear again.
everything else that ties me to the internet is gone
facebook, twitter, formspring, i dont use my tumblr anymore
i dont have to SEE anything anymore.
maybe that makes me weak to have to avoid people like that
but god, it's blissful to not have to see any part of you
facebook used to kill me. so badly.
the things, the photo albums i saw still get at me.
but id like to think i don't miss the people i used to miss
the ones who loved me so much they hurt me the worst
well, maybe i miss the memories we shared
but i have nothing at all to say to them.
not a word.
i miss you and then realize that all the words have stopped cold in my blood.
because more than i miss you,
i won't forget.
and all the crap you did makes me sick.
so i've moved on... hah
feels like im lying to myself.
i hate liars. makes sense, kind of hate myself for going through this crap
this inconsequential crap that really doesn't amount to anything in the grand scheme of life
im glad its over.
im glad youre gone.
and im glad i dont have to write so much constant crappy poetry anymore.
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